Thursday, November 15, 2007
sweet says i haven't been updating for some time and therefore here i am now.. =) get well soon sweet.. please be a good girl by taking your medicine on time.. drink more water if you can alright.. =)
didn't know how much can i believe your words.. but it doesn't matter anymore because everything is over now.. what matters is both of us are leading a better and happier life than before.. still, thanks for answering whatever questions i asked you.. whatever choice you made is all about you.. i chose not to bother because we don't belong as one anymore.. i may seem cold on the outside but actually i'm just hiding on the inside.. or perhaps it's another boundary i've built.. once again.. i'm trying to protect myself.. at least i'm a lot better than few weeks ago.. =) i don't know why but i'm still holding on..
i've decided not to meet up this week.. maybe i'm just being ridiculous, but i don't wish to see you for the time being.. you are still like the past, never change.. but me, i've changed.. i have to.. so that i wouldn't hold on and be like a dumb like that..
i've been wanting to ask myself a few questions.. am i happy nowadays? i mean i'm happy when i'm with my friends.. but why have i been wanting to go to my secret hideout recently.. what's going with me and my friends nowadays? i don't know.. maybe there's nothing wrong.. but i just seem to find some flaws to certain matters.. do i pissed people off easily due to my ridiculous cum contradicting thoughts and feelings? am i like a dumb at times? arhHHhhHhh!! i don't know.. perhaps it's all because of the boredom i get nowadays that cause me to have so much thoughts nowadays..
10:44:00 PM
