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used the computer, edited pictures, update friendster, upload pictures and bathing in a whiile time.. rot at home today and gonna go to amk central soon to get some stuffs later.. what a boring day today.. excited about tml.. haha.. i hope i can sleep early today.. i need more rest..


i think i've decided to buy lin yu zhong's album again.. =) don't wanna regret.. his voice is so nice and attractive man!! his songs are so nice.. i think i must support him.. muahahaha..


finally, i managed to take a rest for today.. didn't go out after i came home from harbourfront and si ma lu today.. went to harbourfront to collect the free gift after buying the camera and the body.. yeah!! 2GB memory card eh.. can store 1ooo plus of pictures man!! went to buy sis's stuffs and home sweet home.. so tired!!
8 days..


nothing much to blog about nowadays.. didn't go anywhere.. didn't do anything much.. had been staying home either for tuitions if not then is to help my parents to shop for stuffs for sis.. my life is just so boring.. =( i got no life..
10 days


thanks to those who are concerned about me.. of course not excluding my dear cousTayWeiShan.. hmmm.. i'm feeling better compare to yesterday.. sorry for not picking up calls and got you people worried.. also sorry for not wanting to speak up what's happening yesterday.. don't worry about me.. i'm still ok.. thanks to all!!


i wonder when will we meet up again.. it's been 16 days since we last met.. but this time, say no no to quarrel..


damn!!! bad mood i've got today.. don't ask me why..


saw the pair of rose earrings when i'm at town just now..


Happiness is understanding that friendship is more precious than mere things, more precious than getting your own way, more precious than being in situations where true principles are not at stake.
i find this quote meaningful and so i decided to copy it down and blog it here.. =)


went for the gathering yesterday.. ate seoul garden at ngee an city and we just sat outside the main entrance there in a super big circle.. we haven't been sitting down like that for a long time.. =)
there were hei hei, bee, florence, jaime, hwee miang, angel, angeline, pamela, kai rong, xuan, bro, buddy, kenrick, hao, jun xiang, kelvin thong, jia yi, boon, tien loong and eng hao.. after that, still not enough, miang, bee, angel, florence, hei hei, kai rong, buddy, boon, bro and me took bus 162 to the new mac at amk to continue chatting.. sat there till 3 plus and we left.. couldn't sleep when i laid on bed and only managed to sleep at 6 in the morning.. ain't i pathetic? =( but i didn't regret for turning up for the gathering, cause we had so much fun throughout the whole night.. i wanna see them again and soon!!


sometimes i'll think about these questions that i wanna ask you.. are you happier nowadays? your life have changed.. are you used to your life without me? am i such a person that you heard from others?
seriously my life have changed too but i ain't used to it without you.. taking so many pictures everytime i went out do bring me lots of memories nowadays.. but i ain't very happier.. i am happy after that, but each time when i went to places we had went before just reminded me of you..
no way back? perhaps...


went to my house nearby mac to meet bee eng and florence this evening.. hmmm.. we have so much to talk about and we gonna meet up again with the others on this coming friday with the rest of our cliques.. =) i don't even remember when was the last time the 3 of us sat down to talk already.. meaning we really hadn't been meeting up for a long time.. i so so miss them man!! we were so excited for the whole evening.. updated one another and went to take pictures inside the toilet again.. it's always our routine to sit at mac near the window panes, take pictures inside the toilet and seeing lots of familiar faces.. we used to be there to study for our examinations and etc.. even until now, my "lao gong" is still sitting at his usual sit outside.. haha.. we saw him when we were talking about bf halfway.. what a coincident, my lao gong walked past and sat at his usual seat outside.. 3 of us just burst into laughter when we saw him lohz.. haha.. he's an old man actually, then last time we used to joke that he's my lao gong cause i like my bf to be older.. haha.. he's still like last time, always got home don't sleep, sit down there dosing off la.. i've divorced him cause he always like to sit outside there to look at me la.. haha..
had a nice evening with them today.. thanks my darlings, you girls will never be replaced okie.. take great care.. i'm so excitedly awaiting for this coming friday to come.. muahahaha.. i guess we'll take more pictures!!


have no tuition today cause went to pick daddy up from the hospital.. he's doing great but hope his wound can heal faster.. =) gotta look after him too, he's resting at home now.. meaning i can't go out too often for these few weeks, or even until i leave.. cause daddy's leave is until 1st june.. oh man!! i think i'll be get so bored of staying at home la.. gonna stop my tuition on the 26th may so that i'll have some time to prepare my stuffs for holland and then continue when i'm back.. haha..
called moe yesterday.. shit!! no more vacancies for practical lessons.. don't know how am i gonna practise for my practical!! arhHHHhhH!!!!!! i'm super suay =(


perhaps a lot of things had changed.. i guess i changed the most.. my reason for changing? i can't confirm.. i don't wish everything to have changed so much.. i didn't expect too.. did things went haywired or it's just us who don't wanna give in.. can everything still be salvaged? i wish they can, i guess it only depend on us.. i guess the quarrel for the past 2 days had hurt both of us deeply.. it's also the first time that we quarrelled.. it's also the first time that we said those harsh words.. such big ones.. =( maybe it will be better for us to have let go.. but i don't want to, so are you, i'd said before it's the last thing that i'll ever do to just give eveything up.. all i wanted was just to become a little different and not to the extent of giving everything up.. has everything come to this state.. i'm so confused, in a dilemma..
i just hate those people who said that i'm just trying to gain sympathy from them and let them hate you.. i swear i didn't have that intention.. i didn't just walked away after saying "if you don't share with me, then i shall not share anything with you anymore.." this was said after i walked off and went back.. it was not said before i walked away talking to others.. i was just joking anyway.. i don't know what went wrong.. when have things become like that.. i was so disappointed and upset when i knew about all those things..
I DIDN'T TRY TO GAIN ANY SYMPATHY FROM ANYONE!!! I DON'T NEED TO!! THOSE PEOPLE BETTER STAY AWAY FROM ME AND DON'T LET ME KNOW WHO YOU PEOPLE ARE.. IF YOU PEOPLE DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON, THEN SHUT UP AND DON'T TRY TO ACCUSE ME!! IF YOU PEOPLE ARE JUST TRYING TO MESS WITH ME, I'M NOT INTERESTED IN THAT.. i know it sounds so uncivilised to say that but i can't think off any other words to say, JUST **** off!! I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHAT YOU PEOPLE SAID!!
i don't wanna know who are these people, cause i'll be real disappointed if i ever knew who are they.. you asked and i just say.. that's all.. i thought i can they'll just listen but.. i'm wrong.. forget it..
maybe time is really all we need.. can we still be happy like how we are? i won't be any happier if we just give everything up.. i guess you won't too, truthfully, will you? i hope there may have other ways to solve the problem..
just take care alright..


oh man!! shit!! i still can't log into friendster!! arhHhhhhH!! i'm so excited to upload those pictures but i just can't log in.. so sad man.. =( anyone can help?!! i'm so sad lohz.. cannot log in means cannot see my new comments and all..
gonna go and see doctor later, otherwise that cousTayWeiShan is gonna start nagging again..


well, woke up at 3 and honey called me.. so poor thing of me can.. woke up and no one was at home other than my dog, russell.. no food to eat, no one at home and i'm sick!!.. arhHhhH! so i just anyhow grab tidbits to eat.. too hungry already.. after finishing, mummy reached home, ate her rojak.. then came online.. heard from mummy that we'll be going off on the 5th June 2007.. time flies.. i have 1 month and 3 more days in singapore.. hmmm, i guess i'll miss quite a lot of people here.. =(
oh man, i'm so excited to go over there, but i'm so worried that i'll missing everything here lohz..


i have so much fun today, although some problems cropped up during the middle of kbox with honey and bro.. took quite some pictures and still have more to come, just that i need to wait for honey to go online to send me those pictures.. after singing, me and bro played pool while honey sat down there to watch us play.. i think the 3 of us are all sick.. honey had been sneezing for the whole day, bro had been nose bleeding recently and i have a sore throat today.. OMG!! poor sickly mental patients.. haha.. that's what we call ourselves.. cool eh!!
by the way, my dearest honey and bro, please take good care of yourselves okie dokie.. do drink loads of water!! let us all get well soon.. =D
i didn't know that that cute ah toon has my blog.. he came to see and wrote me a comment in friendster.. thank you so much ah toon!! =)


blogging is a way to express myself when i chose not to speak up to others.. it's not about publicising.. although others may know how i'm feeling or even know what am i talking about.. they can just chose whether to ask more deep in depth and it's up to me to decide if i wanna tell them.. not speaking up is not because i'm bottling up my feelings.. it's because i don't wish to add on unhappiness to others..

why can i just give others so much advise and yet i can never seem to advise myself to think it through about those advises i gave.. we're on the same kinda boat but i chose to let others to take things more easily than i am.. but i myself still chose not to do almost the same thing that i told others.. sometimes i just think if i'm being too harsh and rash.. maybe i'm in the wrong or maybe some day i'll just regret for everything i've done.. i don't know if i'll feel better about it.. giving in and getting in return are just nothing.. i don't wish for anything in return and not even to say cruelty.. what i don't wanna get back in return is cruelty.. it's only that that i don't wanna gain.. i rather i get nothing compare to the cruelty i've got.. merciless is what i can describe it as..
i might be how one told me, i can stay so happy from the outside but deep inside me.. i'm as depressed and miserable as no one can imagine.. but i'm sure that someday i'll be able to just forget about it when i got busy with other stuffs.. but the someday will be an unknown cause i don't know how long will i take.. it just need to take so much time to heal my wound.. it's a deep deep wound which i've got..

i just wish how good will it be if my life can be plainly so simple..
There isn't a single human being who hasn't plenty to cry over, and the trick is to make the laughs outweigh the tears.