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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

can i really differentiate? i don't know.. it seems to be so confusing yet actually things can just be so simple.. i wanna be the one whom i can actually be so clear of myself just like the past.. but the person whom i am now is just so different.. i don't know how to explain.. but.. just..
it's already real terrible that i often don't know how to handle my problems.. now is worse.. i can't differentiate between the black and white..

12:00:00 AM

Monday, March 26, 2007

held my hands, hold you tight..
just to tell you i'll be there for you..
whether you are mine, it doesn't matters..
what matters is i can still see you right in my eyes..
just be happy and stay the way..
i can't love you but it's ok..
never tear cause you're never alone..

3:11:00 AM

hmmm.. just came back from downstairs after walking my dog with bao bei.. too bored and now we are rotting in my bro's room enjoying our air-con =)
wonderful isn't it.. hehe.. going to watch mf's nationals against chung cheng high.. all the best my dearest juniors!!!

3:08:00 AM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

i simply love coffeebean!!! muahahaha!!! wonderful!! kuku =)

7:45:00 PM

went to meet jia, joa, irish, van and mei ning this afternoon to see them play mahjiong irish's house.. haha.. cause me this dumb dumb don't know how to play.. after that went to teck ghee cc to watch them play basketball.. wa piang eh!! joanna really made me burst into laughter lohz.. kept on giving the kuku face when we went to buy stuffs for the rest.. went to meet them again ytd also like that.. but she's so fun la.. she's a virgo too sia.. what a coincidence!! 14th september.. haha.. so gonna go meet bao bei later as i haven't seen her for 3 days liao.. hmmm.. but that gal still didn't pick up my call.. don't know what is she doing.. think gonna go down to find jia they all first since got nothing to do at home.. =)

7:34:00 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

yeah!! had a change of blogskin today.. spend so long to finish up this blogskin.. tired but i like!! haha.. yeah!!

6:29:00 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

my heart beats as fast as no one can imagine..

6:30:00 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

went to meet jia and guang yue in the evening after dinner with kor and mummy.. then went to meet joanna at chom chom dere de coffeebean.. hmmm.. the atmosphere was real good.. sort of quite like that place.. the surroundings there are not bad too.. talked crap with them, ate a bite of cheesecake by gy and sat a while then cab home.. $3++ only.. quite cheap.. haha.. everytime whenever we hanged out is always so fun.. cause we will always be laughing and laughing away..

yeah!! it's my first time la teh-ing with them over there.. haha..

10:31:00 PM

i'm just gonna so busy from next week onwards.. muahahaha!! yeah!! but after this month, i'm gonna start my mugging life liao.. oh man!! time just flies so quickly!! but nvm, i still have around 2 weeks more to enjoy my life.. after i still can enjoy, but it will only get lesser and lesser.. =(

it's rather saddening la.. gonna retake o level again.. stress is just somewhere near me only.. but nvm, just gonna concentrate on 2 subjects and therefore, my life shouldn't be that bad.. wish me good luck!! smile..

1:27:00 AM

went to bao bei's house last night.. was actually planning to meet her at night but ended sleeping over at her house.. due to the heavy rain also la.. went to meet her and her group of friends.. OMG!! they were real funny.. just can make me laugh and laugh throughout the night.. it was quite boring at first, but after some time, quite ok liao.. had so much fun pick fighting with wen jie la.. he's super funny and lame at times.. but he really let me suan him till he went wordless.. i'm more man than me lohz.. haha.. so we stayed up till 3 plus 4 then poom, off we slept.. hehe.. had a real funny dream in the morning and she just slap me on my hand and i was awake by her.. at first i was still wondering whether did she slap me anot.. indeed she did when we were talking about this over the phone at night just now.. haha.. then morning went to her room to sleep and i dreamt of something so funny which made me laughed for the second time this morning.. haha..

went home after a little bit of brunch, bathed, ate laska, my daddy bought it de.. so nice can!! then went down to meet jia, xuan, guang yue and rui ling.. went back home, playing with photoshop again and out i went again to meet bao bei.. went to develop my 268 photos!! haha.. part of it was taken during CNY, then others are mine.. i'm so happy lohz.. looked at those pictures and i really love them tonnes.. haha..

i enjoy playing with photoshop!! simply love it.. it can just entertained me throughout the whole day if i'm at home.. super tired now!! finally, recently i was still widely awake playing with my psp at this time.. but today, i'm really super duper shagged!! buay tahan liao.. i wanna kun le.. good nights!!!

1:11:00 AM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

went orchard with honey today.. met 2 on the train and went to accompany her to do her nails.. tai tai always do nails de.. super rich can!! haha.. after that, went wisma then went to paragon to see the phone which she intends to buy it.. after that, went to heeren to see if our eyecandies were there.. but both of them weren't there.. left with disappointment, walked to cine.. went tpy to eat with javier.. then the 2 of them just kept on attacking me la.. idiot javier kept adding oil to the fume.. then i ended up kenna scolded by yi hua.. so poor thing lohz.. =(

cabbed down to amk central funland.. thought of playing bishi bashi(suggested by her) but don't have.. so we ended up playing street fighter la.. sai lohz.. that cheater bug, kept on using the same move and just freeze down there without moving la.. i lost in the end, walked up to see javier and his friend playing billard..

went to meet jing long under his block.. before that, i went up to see that cute little puppy maltese.. OMG!! she's super cute sia.. kept on turning rounds and licking me when she saw me.. haha.. so chatted downstairs and went to accompany aaron for prata.. left and went up to jing long's house again.. just to pay a visit for that cute little puppy.. haha..

edited some photos using photoshop again.. again!! i only edited one which is the one on top.. haha.. gonna spend some time doing more tml.. muahahaha!! so happy for the whole day today!! yeah!!!

2:18:00 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

just sort of really learnt how to play with photoshop today.. spend my whole day sitting in front of the com just to master it.. still not v good at it but at least i managed to really decorated something i really like.. although it's only one la.. it's better than none!! haha.. it's really fun lohz.. just keep me entertained for the whole day today.. yeah!! trying hard to totally master it.. hehe.. i love it!!!!

10:12:00 PM

it was rather a real fun day with bao bei today.. went to her workplace to find her.. after that, we went to orchard.. bought our tickets for I'M A CYBORG, went for lunch at Kobayashi.. finally, had the energy to walked around.. went to heeren to see if the keychain is still available.. so sad!! NO MORE!! =( so we walked around and went to NewUrbanMale to see if my eyecandy Gary is there anot.. was so disappointed when we went to the smaller branch.. so we walked around and decided to go to the biggest branch.. at first i thought he wasn't there, until the last minute.. OMG!!! he's so shuai and cute today lohz.. the first time i saw him, he didn't style his hair.. this time saw him, he styled up his hair.. OMG!! he looks so different today.. just so attractive can.. haha.. he remembered me and even waved and say hi to me lohz.. OMG!! my heart melted when i saw him waving and talking to me.. oh man!!

after that, we walked to far east, trying hard to find her stud, but didn't managed to find any.. so we went to mac to have ice-cream.. then took our own sweet time to do some other stuffs then walked back to cine slowly.. the movie was quite nice actually.. actually i wasn't quite interested in the movie de, but since bao bei wanted to watch, no harm giving a try to watch la..

but i'm such a failure la.. didn't noticed that bao bei wasn't feeling well.. until the end of the movie then she told me about it.. quickly went out, bought her a cup of hot milo.. sat down there and went back to amk.. wanted to send her home cause i saw how terrible she was.. but she said it's ok and so i was just like an ah ma.. kept messaging her telling her all sorts of stuffs to do when she got home.. after that, went to meet jia, van, irish and joa.. others went off early, left me and jia, chat till 3 plus.. had quite a lot to talk about.. haha.. she's also keen on learning diving.. she said that she's gonna go tioman island to learn from her dad's friend at the end of the year.. asked me if i wanna go, of cause i wanna learn la.. but it's still not comfirmed yet.. OMG!! i'm so excited when i found some people who are also keen on learning diving.. haha..

gonna try to sleep asap, still gotta be busy with some stuffs tml..

bao bei, get well soon!! =)

4:12:00 AM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

went to meet yi hua to accompany her for lunch during her break.. she treat me to long john silver.. haha.. yummy!!! thanks.. accompanied her for a while then went to meet ah mun at her work place.. waited till 7 then we took train to bishan.. both of us kept calling each other da jie then when we did something wrong, must bow to da jie.. haha.. like siao la.. but it's fun!! haha.. wanted to watch movie but it's too expensive.. so decided to maybe watch tml.. went to KFC to eat.. walked around and walked to my house downstairs.. talked till 11 plus, sent her out to take bus and i took bus home..

12:28:00 AM

Friday, March 16, 2007

only managed to take pictures with florence, jia hao and si hui.. then the picture after me and si hui was taken by florence, cause she wanted to put it into her phone as called ID so i asked her to take that picture.. it symbolised that i've got an eyecandy now.. haha.. that pair of havanias was the one i bought from GARY today.. haha..

1:13:00 AM

yeah!! youhooooo!! had quite some fun today.. woke up at 1, washed up and went to meet them 2 at lao di fang.. took train there and waited for si hui to come while eating mac.. bought the tickets, the haunted school!! eeek!! the ending was super lousy la.. sai de lohz.. but it wasn't v scary also la.. the worst part throughout the movie was that there was an uncle and i think he's not ok de la.. kept saying those dirty things and rubbish during the movie.. then there was this group of boys sitting behind us.. super noisy and childish lohz.. can't stand them, whatever the uncle said, they just repeat after him as if they are his parrots like that.. super irritating la, then the ah boy sitting behind me just keep on kicking my seat which made me fumed la.. but i controlled myself and just pushed my seat back.. haha.. so walked around and realised there were blisters on my leg just because of the slipper i wore la.. sux man!! it's really painful de lohz.. so they suggested to go search for a pair of comfy shoe for me as the next event.. haha.. walked around heeren and went to newurbanmale.. cause i think that havanias there suit any outfit i wear..

it's definitely the right shop that i went okie.. saw this guy staff working there and the first sight i saw him already find him quite good looking liao.. he's my NEW EYECANDY!! jia hao, buddy and yao zhong says his name is GARY.. haha.. he is so cute looking lohz.. he just caught my attention.. but what was embarrassing was that he picked quite a lot of different kind of type for me but none did i chose.. so decided to walk around and went to cine, played pool and i decided to go back num agn.. haha.. decided to buy from him and shun bian take his number.. but the asking for number part was joking de la.. didn't have the courage anyway.. hehe.. so went back and was deciding if i should take the turqoise or green one.. so my gary said that black and white are easier to match.. while si hui said white is better cause he's wearing a white havanias too.. while florence and the rest prefer white.. so i took white in the end.. cost me $39.90 la.. paid by nets leh.. it's like i'm so xin tong lohz.. but it's quite worth it, for the sake of next time i can still wear it and most importantly is for the sake of GARY!! haha.. i wanna go find him again someday.. haha..

so we went to lucky plaza for pizzahut and saw javier while we went to toilet at isetan.. took crap with him and saw honey.. haha.. so excited to see her can.. chatted a while and home we go.. wanted to meet bao bei and cousin shan de.. but cause i was still at lucky plaza when it was 10 plus.. by the time i reached it will be real late.. so wanted to meet jia, guang yue and joanna but due to me being late, i decided to ask them to go off since jia is going joa's house.. so reached home, cleaned my newly bought shoes, talked on the phone with honey and decided to finish my ah wang after this.. haha..

i thought it would be boring today but it turned out fun.. haha.. i just have so much fun today.. thanks people!! took some pictures while we were on our way back..

12:48:00 AM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

yeah!! gonna be going out with buddy, florence, jia hao, yao zhong and maybe si hui tml.. gonna go catch a movie and after that should be pooling.. it should be quite fun la.. finally!! i have the mood to go out tml liao.. wonderful isn't it!! hehe..

1:26:00 AM

now then i realised, it actually should be some kinda special feeling.. i hope so and supposed it's gonna be like this.. too confusing for me to think it through..

1:02:00 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

sort of had a minor arugment with yi hua last night.. but luckily, everything was ok today.. otherwise i will have a major headache today.. couldn't meet her today and she was fuming.. dui bu qi ma.. bie sheng qi le.. haha..

these 2 people always give me so much problem.. "quarrel" then ok, "quarrel" then ok.. sometimes i really wonder.. i might had owed them a lot in my past life.. but it's really my blessings to have known them now.. no regrets!! definitely!! they can always affect me a lot.. especially one of them.. but we always made up each time after one another fights.. they are also people who made me grow up each time after we had fights.. one had changed me a lot.. and the other always made me learnt a lesson.. sometimes i just don't wish to give in but.. based on the character i have, it's impossible for me not to give in. haha.. 2 of them are of different characters and i can actually clique with them so much..

they are also the ones who'll always be there for me whenever i'm down and everything.. i'll also be there for them whenever they need someone with them.. just wanna say thanks to them..

but both of them have something in common.. always like to complain that i'm bad and etc.. they are also v good to get jealous over some people i mixed with.. haha.. but i know they meant no harm and they are just concern about me.. you 2 can say that i'm being super thick skin.. so long as i understand jiu hao.. hehe.. and they also dislike me to put the 2 of them together.. i also don't know why.. just don't like.. haha..

i think if you 2 read this entry, i supposed you 2 are gonna comment or complain again.. if not, then i'll get scoldings from them asap!! haha!!

11:35:00 PM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

almost forget to blog about ytd.. went sbc to watch the match, MFss against AIss.. after that went to meet jing long and the rest of the gang.. it's kenrick's birthday ytd.. HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY.. it's been sometime since we went out in such big group.. there were angeline tay, jetaime, swee boon, chia kang, samantha, kok heng, eng how, jia hao, jing long, florence, angel, bee eng, wei kang, kenrick, siang wei, jun xiang, kelvin thong, tien loong, jin huat, jia yi and guo ming.. went marina for steamboat and sang birthday song for him.. after that, went to a side to update bee eng and jetaime.. had so much fun with them.. wei zhen and pamela turned up late night.. but we left after they came a while cause we gotta catch up the last bus and train..

12:57:00 AM

took quite a lot of pictures for the past few days.. got more but some can't be uploaded.. it's a secret between me and someone.. illegal posting is not allowed.. hee!!

12:40:00 AM

went tp to appeal today.. but no outcome.. i can't get in cause the cut off point is too high for me to get in.. =(

so most probably i'll be retaking.. ah mun accompanied me today for the whole day.. cheered me up and we were having so much fun while we were sitting down at tampines's block downstairs.. sang and we even played kids game.. played scissors paper stone and the winner's gonna piggy back the loser throughout the corridor.. haha.. it was so fun!! i've enjoyed myself with her today.. thanks for everything today.. i'll take your advise and encouragement to heart!! thanks..

let's have more of such fun the next time.. =)

12:26:00 AM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

hadn't been taking pictures with her for quite some time and so i really insisted on taking some until she gets her smile right.. haha.. it was quite well taken right.. i look so weird in the first picture.. but since she finds it ok then i just post it up liao.. haha.. my hair in the second picture looks so short.. maybe i suit this kinda length? haha..

went to bao bei's house to stay over.. slept at around 7 in the morning after chatting with her.. woke up at 2 plus this afternoon and decided to go home to change and meet her again.. changed and we met at 5.30.. but i was late, all the bus 261's fault for arriving late.. shopped around for kenrick's and sin yee's presents and yeah!!, got them real fast after we went to eat our favourite duck rice.. so we shopped around at bugis street and bao bei and she bought her denim HOT PANTS!! haha.. she says wanna go somewhere for a seat and talk.. so we head to hougang after that.. went to the place where we last time often sat.. sat there for around and hour plus, i insisted on taking pictures and finally got some right!! haha.. and left..

i sort of had a nice day out with her today and not forgetting the night we spent talking last night.. thanks for everything bao bei!! i'll remember what you said last night.. =)

gonna sleep early tonight so that i can make it for tml's match, MF against AI.. OMG!! this is quite thrilling man.. gonna give bao bei morning call tml and i supposed she's busy or asleep now cause she hasn't called me back yet.. haha.. but nvm la, i'm gonna get to sleep soon.. good nights!!!

1:26:00 AM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

OMG!! i'm so bored.. had been so bored and had been staying at home for past 2 days.. buey tahan ah..

7:35:00 PM

Friday, March 02, 2007

read through the history conversations just now.. i have such a weird feeling after reading it and tears just shed without me knowing.. it contains lots of expressions.. like cold, sweet, lame, angry and etc.. through out the whole conversations which i read.. i realised, been through quite a lot.. there are wonderful times and vice versa..

some phrases are clearly engraved into my mind and my heart which reminds me of a lot of stuffs.. just feel so weird after reading the conversations.. it's just unable to describe what is wrong..

11:45:00 PM

Thursday, March 01, 2007

2nd time went to that place.. hmmm.. this time.. i took 45 minutes to think through everything clearly.. felt much more better and so i decided to send her a message saying that maybe she's right, it's better to maintain everything in this way first.. told her but i still wish that someday we'll return to how we are months ago and also to hear her calling me that name again.. she may not want it that way, but it's ok la.. just my wish ma.. so long as she's happy, i'm fine with everything now.. cause i don't wanna ask for more anymore.. she already apologised to me for breaking her promises and so long as we are still together now.. i'm contented already cause i don't wanna lose her, she's important to me!! i still love my bao bei!! =)

sometimes i may be real stupid.. but since she's already giving in already, what more can i ask for.. sometimes, one do need to think positively so that they can live for the better.. i think it's worth it, i'm just so willing to give it a try..

it's kelvin lim's birthday today!! happy 18th birthday.. legal age liao sia!! wonderful!! haha..

it's also me and bao bei's phone's birthday!! today's last year, both of us bought our phones together and time flies.. it's one year old le!! haha.. happy birthday too!! hehe..

11:06:00 PM

went to cousin's house last night to stay over with jo, and hui min.. talk a lot of rubbish and all of us slept at around 8 or 9 plus in the morning.. didn't really do much but just talk and laugh and just talk and laugh.. dumb right..

woke up at around 1 plus and everyone were getting ready to go off cause everyone have their own activities today.. except for me!! so bored now.. think i'm going out soon since i got nothing to do at home.. it's just so boring to stay at home.. haiz..

sort of missing bee eng and gang again.. hadn't been meeting them ever since after my birthday.. OMG!! which is 1 month plus liao sia.. i hope they weren''t complaining..

feeling better after some stuffs had been solved.. shall just keep everything in this way first ba.. i also don't know what to do.. seems that there's nothing i can do anyway..

7:14:00 PM