Wednesday, January 31, 2007
I almost went crazy when I sent you messages after another and you didn’t reply me a simple one.. it gives me the feeling that it’s too late.. I really hope not.. cause it hurts me so much that I couldn’t settle myself down..
Tears weren’t under my control anymore..
11:49:00 PM
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
everything wasn't meant to be like this.. i messed everything up.. the fear in me made me so moodless, so upset and everything.. listening to those songs just brings me so much memories of what we had done before.. i'm afraid that everything would have gone back to the past..
I FEAR!!!!
11:30:00 PM
happy belated birthday xuan.. =)
it's her birthday yesterday and my off day too.. went to watch mf's tournament against anderson.. what the hell.. when i reached, the score was 40 plus to 4.. we're 4 ok.. then don't know what happened, everyone seems to be on form soon after i reached.. haha.. hmmm.. so after the match, we went to pizzahut with min, shan, xuan, rose, yi hua, shina, doris, ying hui, ivy, alicia, ying tsui, adora and jue ying.. ate and we sang her birthday song.. after that, we walked around amk central and decided to go shan's house since xuan don't wanna go home that early.. while min and rose went off.. so we stayed there till 11 plus and i went to meet jing long to talk.. talked till around 2 and we went to meet yi hua, terry and aaron at amk train station.. omg!! we played till so wild lohz.. played truth or dare half way and 2 policemen came and screened us.. luckily we didn't do anything illegal, otherwise we would be in deep trouble.. truth or dare was super fun.. haha.. we were like a bunch of crazy monkeys laughing and jumping around lohz.. so the uncle who was selling magazine there was awake by our noise and he came shouting.. OOI!!! what time already?.... then don't know what he said and we ignored him la.. then after that home we went.. yi hua came my house to watch television till 6 and she went off.. i was so tired, the moment i laid on bed, poom!! sleep liao.. =)
woke up late this morning and was late for work..
11:19:00 PM
Monday, January 29, 2007
everything... nothing....
supposingly to be my happy day for going shopping with mummy for the whole day but i spoilt it.. i'm sorry for lying.. i know it's hard for me to explain and you may not wanna listen.. apologising is all i can.. trying to text you and even call you.. but you didn't reply.. everytime when it's one day before mf's tournament, this kinda thing always happen.. i'm just so.....
recently i had been asking myself this question.. am i worth it for you to do so much for me? cause to you, i'm changing into another person.. you tried so hard to so so much to do everything for me.. but i may had made you feel that it's not worth it.. i really really treasure you.. but things i've did just don't seem so.. i'm in deep deep shit this time!!!!!
so muchn things had happened recently and yet i still don't treasure you more than enough.. just what the hell am i doing!!!! please don't leave me alone.. i'm so lonely and it gives me shivers all the way down to my spine.. all my mind is thinking now is you you and just you.. i feel so helpless and just feel like...
you're all i need..
12:47:00 AM
Saturday, January 27, 2007
thanks for doing stuffs which are beyond your limits for me sometimes.. thanks for specially searching the song for me just now.. i really appreciate it.. sorry by saying those hurting words to you just now.. you asked me for an answer, i don't wanna be wishy washy by keep on dragging and dragging and made you fall deeper and deeper.. that's why i chose to be frank with you.. it may have hurt you.. but if i don't speak up what's on my mind, you may get hurt deeper.. i don't think there are any misunderstandings but since you assume there is and wanted to talk things out again.. ok.. let's see what is there to explain of..
really hope that this thing can be solved soon..
2:16:00 AM
so surprised and happy to see bao bei.. it's been a long time since we meet up.. i'm missing her so much and i was thinking if she will come down to my workplace to look for me.. indeed we have super good telepathy.. she came!!! it's really nice and sweet of her to accompany me throughout the whole afternoon.. she just sit down there accompany me for the whole day when i was working.. so after working, we went to eat our real favourite duck rice.. haha.. so home we head after eating..
bao bei ah bao bei.. know that you would read this sooner or later.. so just wanna tell you.. don't sentenced to me to death okie.. charging me is already v serious liao.. hope that you'll discharge me soon =) thanks for being so sweet today.. lub you!!!!!!!!!! muacks!!
1:05:00 AM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
my house is under renovation now.. it's not actually renovating la.. but just repainting everything now lohz.. i'm so excited to see my room being repainted into another colour.. but everywhere and everything in my house now is in super big mess.. every walkway will just block my way.. it is so irritating.. some more, the toilet in the kitchen is still painting in process now, can't even use lohz.. everything is cover with newspaper and cardboard.. not only that but also my living room.. can anyone of you imagine how messy my house is like now.. heard from my mum saying that maybe starting from tml onwards, the workers who are my dad's friends are gonna start to paint our rooms.. hmmm.. i picked a real different colour compare to the other rooms.. quite like the colour!!! haha..
what's terrible is not the end ok.. my DOG... that idiot had been barking throughout the whole morning just because there are people outside the windows cutting the trees.. he is just so irritating.. he woke me up from my sleep!!! ARhHHHhhH!!! feel like throwing him into the bin lohz.. wa kao!!! already don't have enough sleep already he still do stunt by barking throughout the whole day!!! sux!!!!
my whole house is full of the smell of the paint.. bluff people de lohz.. what odourless paint.. obvious it is smelly sia.. hiding inside my bro's room also can smell it la.. OMG!! i wish they can get this done soon.. sooOoooO lack of privacy man...
it's a bad day for me.. some more from today till saturday i can only knock off at 10pm sia.. my lady boss won't be in singapore for these 3 days.. arhHhHhhh!! i hope i won't die of tiredness today.. hope that my friends can come accompany me for those who knows that i'm working at bugis now.. but i don't think there are many people who knows sia.. cause i didn't really tell them about it.. pray hard that there at least have someone to go there to look for me today ot till saturday.. cause i'm so bored there!!!
11:34:00 AM
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
it's my first day working at bugis street today.. hmmm.. relax!! haha.. feel the freedom there, no in charge there, can use handphone as and when i like.. can sit down as and when i want.. haha.. quite like the job although it's a bit bored down there.. luckily i still have my psp to accompany me.. haha.. some day, maybe i can get my friends to go there find me.. haha.. people who wanna look for me at my working place just give me a call.. i'll be down there on every weekdays from 2 to 7.. some times will be there from 2 to 10.. this thursday to saturday, i'll be there from 2 to 10 cause my boss is not in singapore.. so i'll be down there for the whole day.. contact me if any of you wanna go look for me..
9:47:00 PM
Monday, January 22, 2007
missing some people and some places recently.. but my working hours now is quite good.. so i'm not worried about not being able to have time to go out and meet up with some friends.. some more i can get my friends to come find me when they have the time to.. haha.. hope i'll like this new job and new environment and not bored to death.. =)
gonna be missing people at op too.. people like my cousin (weishan), kai rong, miang, aloy, mao he, huat.. they are so fun to play with.. miss me people.. i'll go back to visit you people when i have the time to.. haha..
11:42:00 PM
time past real slow today.. but i had a real nice day today.. all thanks to hui zi mei mei and hwee miang.. all because of their contradicting trick made me feel so disappointed and happy whenever mei mei sent me a message each time.. at first she told me that she gonna come find me when i knock off then we go eat together.. then had a change of mind again by telling me that she couldn't make it again.. just kept on telling me can cannot.. interesting right?! at a moment i'm happy but after that i'm disappointed again..
so at first i thought she really couldn't make it and thought me and miang can still go eat after i knocked off.. but in the end, both put me aeroplane sia.. i was real disappointed at that time, then i was like, ok lohz.. nvm.. shall go bugis later to do some stuffs and it's easier for me to do it alone ma.. then when i was about to knock off at 6, saw 2 girls who look so familiar came with their evil grins.. wa piang!! at that moment then i realised i got tricked lohz.. qi daoOoOoooOo!!!! i almost wanna explode liao lohz..
so after i knocked off, 3 of us went to eat our cheese baked rice at opposite our working place.. ate and we talked crap there.. had so much laughter and fun with the 2 of them la..
thanks loads girls!! u 2 are great!! the surprise was indeed a success.. but don't expect me to forget how the 2 of you bluffed me kz.. but still wanna thanks you 2 for being so nice and sweet to come all the way to op la.. really happy and touched!! this time is not gan dong and kai xin yi xia liao.. is hen duo xia liao.. right mei mei?? haha.. btw, thought you can't use com.. no modem eh.. can use wor?
thanks miang for accompanying me to bugis just now too.. x)
11:22:00 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
i'll miss those days.. when i was singing and "shooting mtv" with 2 mei mei.. miss those signs.. miss those days when we were suaning one another.. miss those days when we were folding those clothes and sorting them in sizes and colours.. miss those days when we were standing in front of the fan and ignore those customers.. miss those days crazying and laming with them..
x)
12:15:00 AM
OMG!! was so disappointed that hui zi mei mei can't continue to work with us.. initially she regretted for quitting today.. cause she don't know what to do when she quit.. so we tried so hard to help her to continue but cause of her fierce mama don't allow her to continue anymore.. it was such a waste sia.. felt so she bu de cause i'll really miss them badly.. =(
hmmm.. so much stuffs had happened at work today.. first was the quarrel they had with a customer.. that stupid aunty just anyhow scold them.. poor them.. especially 2 mei meis.. got scolded then didn't react to her.. haha.. poor cousin also got scolded for nothing!! miang was the most courageous.. haha.. so man sia..
then was the cashier who came today.. 2 mei meis didn't regret working.. cause until their last day, one shuai shuai cashier came.. haha.. i was so interested in him but too bad he's attached.. but no la, i wasn't seriously interested in him de.. just playing around only..
tml is my full shift!!! wth!! feel like crying lohz.. full shift eh.. sux!!! without 2 mei mei, don't know how to survive throughout the whole 12 hours at outram park lohz.. but luckily still got kai rong and shan to accompany me.. =) at least not so bad.. haha..
talked a lot to miang today.. had a nice talk with her today although it's only for a while.. haha..
anyway, feel like having a tongue pierce sia!! don't really wanna tattoo.. not so interested i mean.. but i know getting a tongue pierce is definitely impossible one lohz.. don't wanna let some people cold war with me and don't wanna get hacked by my mummy.. she'll kill me if she knows i went for tongue piercing..
12:14:00 AM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
didn't know the someone will feel so upset that she had drifted from us.. i think she's really affected by us other than her own stuffs.. didn't realise until ying hui showed us her blog.. hmmm.. i think she's really upset.. but i really don't know what to do to make her feel better.. i hope she wouldn't let this affect her for long and i hope to get to do something about it soon.. things had really changed a lot.. so sorry..
1:22:00 AM
one said i had you pampered.. did i? maybe i did.. but i did it out of my own free will.. =)
one said i must keep my promise.. have i? i will try.. =)
1:18:00 AM
took pictures with our 2 dearest mei mei, hui zi and su hui.. cause they gonna quit soon and we don't know when will we be able to see them again.. got to get closer with them until their last few days here.. for this whole week, i had been working with the 2 of them together.. we had so much fun and crazyness.. getting to like them better and better.. they are super cute and funny.. hope to be able to get in touch with them in future.. =)
1:13:00 AM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
things had finally been settled down a bit.. i'm glad that things didn't worsened.. i hope i really get to have some peace now.. no more unhappiness, no more fights, no more conflicts, no more hatred and NO MORE!!!
anyway, i bought a new psp game just now when i'm on my way back to amk central.. couldn't manage to buy the NBA cause i don't have enough money with me.. i think i'll buy it another time.. for the time being, i have 2 games to play.. yeah!! 1 is puzzle bobble and another 1 is a racing game.. gonna try out the game soon after i'm done with blogging.. hehe..
i'm transforming into a happy person now!! much more happy now..
4:44:00 PM
i almost wanted to give up last night when i read your blog.. it was only a message away and our friendship just nearly end like this.. but i didn't have the courage to send last night.. so i decided to save it and wait till the next time.. instead of sending that message to you.. i forward you a good night message.. i'm glad that you returned one to me.. so it took me the courage to message you by asking whether are you asleep.. i was surprised you weren't asleep yet cause it was around 1 plus.. you were shocked to receive my message too and of course the 2 of us are ok already.. OMG!! i'm super happy last night.. i didn't expect things to be ok that easy.. i thought it would be tough to talk to you over message but actually it wasn't that difficult at all.. instead, all i need was initiative.. thanks for forgiving me and being understanding.. i don't know how long will this take but i hope to maintain this way 1st before anything worse happens again.. thanks for giving me another chance to trust me again..
4:37:00 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
was it my fault.. some say yes while some say no.. i don't know.. maybe i deserve it.. all i needed was time.. but i don't have enough of it.. i don't know how much you can trust my words anymore.. but time is all i needed..
it's the most tough period..
12:39:00 AM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
due to the maintenance last night.. i couldn't managed to thank the most important someone who helped me to prepare the celebration at my house.. haha.. it's my MUMMY!!! thanks loads mummy.. without your help.. i don't know how am i gonna hold the celebration..
hmmm.. yeah!! i've got a good news.. haha.. i've bought my PSP!!! omg!! i'm super happy and i was playing with it since i got home.. after playing, i was trying out the stuffs and see how to use lohz.. i'd changed the theme, it's in limegreen.. super nice lohz.. haha.. i bought the black colour one.. bought the puzzle bubble game.. OMG!! so fun lohz.. haha.. gonna charge it later so that i can play with it tml when i'm on the train.. muahahaha.. also gonna put some photos and pictures into it.. the next time when i got money, i'm gonna buy the usb cable so that i can put in more stuffs into the psp.. also gonna buy a bigger space of memory card.. otherwise there wouldn't have enough space to store some songs, pictures and games.. haha..
10:44:00 PM
hmmm.. clock struck 12, which means my birthday is over.. hmmm.. had a nice day today.. went to vivo city with jing long, florence and wei kang to eat at sakae sushi.. ate till we are super full and we went to my house together to wait for the rest to come.. held a small celebration during the last minute.. to my surprise, almost everyone of them can come sia.. i'm super happy to see them all.. haha.. had 2 cakes, one from mummy and the other from bee eng and gang.. haha.. they are real nice sia.. we had quite some fun.. thanks people for coming to my celebration and those wishes from my friends are really wonderful.. i'm happy..
opened up those presents and i realised i love them all.. those presents were really nice.. shall upload the pictures later.. thanks for everything people.. i had a wonderful 18th birthday..
1:43:00 AM
Friday, January 12, 2007
it was a weird feeling.. i don't know how to express it.. i know i've lost my way.. the stretch of corridor will never be there anymore.. i blocked it myself.. but in order for one to find the way to this route, i had to block it.. even if i walked along this route, things will never be the same anymore, everything had changed.. i won't be walking along this route anymore.. it will become a history but i'll still rmb that i've walked along it before.. thanks and i'm sorry..
1:11:00 PM
happy birthday to me!!
haha.. i had enjoyed myself ytd.. bao bei celebrated for me ytd.. we went to kbox, played with the pop pop inside, sang me birthday song, baked a heart shape oreo cheesecake for me, bought me a bouquet of flowers, gave me presents, brought me to long john to eat, fed me the food, shopped around and off we went..
everything she did for me was really wonderful.. presents from her are all v nice.. i love them all.. thanks bao bei for going onto the expense for all the presents and stuffs ytd.. love you tonnes loads.. x)
then when i left bao bei, went to meet my giordano colleagues cum friends.. they are mao he, aloysius, siang wei, jin huat, terry, kai rong, wei shan, miang, alvin and poh boon.. what's weird is that alvin who was only my in charge were present last night.. all because of siang wei.. he asked him along de.. but it was a nice and simple celebration from them.. we were at the central s11 coffeeshop, then they bought me a mc cafe cake.. some of them bought me presents and after that alvin sent the girls home.. haha.. overall it was a nice celebration la.. i like it and enjoyed it.. thanks people.. after that, cous came to my house to stay over and she left in the morning cause she gotta work today.. we talked a lot last night and it was fun too! haha..
12:34:00 PM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
i did something real dumb today.. i was playing with my phone and so i decided to set up something to secure my phone by having passwords for certain stuffs.. so i attempted once, it says i have one more try.. so i thought by exiting and going back again may get the chance to restart the number of attempts.. so i did it and suddenly the screen says, pin locked.. i was so shock lohz.. OMG!! i was panicking and so i borrowed wei shan's phone and luckily i managed to get the puk code from the M1 customer service.. then shan was scolding me for trying on the password again.. but i really wanna set up the password to secure some stuffs in my phone ma.. otherwise others will be able to peep at my stuffs easily when they looked at my phone..
while i'm working.. i realised i ate quite a lot sia.. cause we're too free liao.. we can even walked around lohz.. it was quite a fun day today.. kai rong and terry came to look for us and helped us to do closing.. so nice right.. haha..
anyway, i've decided.. i want a PSP!!! too tempted liao.. although i saw almost everyone on the streets have it and it seems common.. i don't care.. cause i'm too tempted to play with.. heard from my friend saying that it got lots of functions.. OMG OMG OMG!! i want a PSP!!
11:58:00 PM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
the ring
the necklace
the promises
the pictures
the lock ups
the everyday
the tournaments
the left
the stay overs
the bishi bashi
the warm
the cool
the plead
the soft hearten
the bruises
the train
the stack up
the massages
the cuteness
the dolling up
the bets
the treats
the favourites
the phone
the camera
the wake ups
the side by side
the calls
the stubbornness
the insist
the conversations
the laughters
the nonsense
the cookings
the messages
the happiness
the tightness
the warmness
the coldness
the initiatives
the stunts
the tricks
the jokes
the lameness
the msn
the nicks
the meet ups
the orders
the coming over
the going over
the retardness
the sickness
the places
the sufferings
the gentleness
the differences
the protection
the anxiousness
the limits
the first times
the ice-creams
the temptations
the food
the drinks
the worries
the tears
the mislead
the consolings
the encouragements
the courage
the sensitivity
the blessing
the spite
the insist
the misunderstandings
the sacrifications
the affection
the importance
the everything
the past
the presence
the thoughts
the sorry-s
the thank you-s
the seriousness
the truth
the sassyness
the lighter
the if-s
the even though
the silly-ness
the movies
the songs
the lyrics
the stories
the understanding
the irregardless
the sincerity
the nicknames
the secrets
the image-less
the memories
the future
the letters
the presents
the surprises
the accompany
the mistakes
the embarrassments
the sharing
the giving
the dislikes
the discreetness
the sweetness
the conflicts
the behaviour
the disagreements
the pick fights
the jealousy
the fear
the fun
the wildness
the crazyness
the attitude
the reason
the changes
the contradicts
the perseverance
the confusion
the only me
10:54:00 PM
sorry if you had enough of my nonsense.. i'm sorry..
10:52:00 PM
one after another.. i'm just nothing.. may time prove everything..
1:06:00 AM
saw eunice at dobby ghaut today.. haha.. we were so chatty cum noisy lohz.. kept on crapping and suan-ing each other.. she's also another rubbish de la.. but i enjoy talking to her.. she's just so fun to talk to.. hope to get to meet up with her soon.. i wonder how will that day be.. haha..
12:50:00 AM
Monday, January 08, 2007
OMG!! i feel so tired.. worked in the afternoon shift today.. plus, me and mei mei worked full shift ytd.. i think it could be because of the total wild and crazyness i had with some people for the past 2 days which made me feel so tired..
so sad leh.. miang and kai rong gonna get transfer to J8 outlet from tml onwards till next week.. wa piang.. the attrium at outram park will be so cold lohz.. no one to keep us entertained for 1 week eh.. some more, tml su hui mei mei is not gonna work tml cause she's sick.. tml's atmosphere will be worse.. arhHhHh!! but luckily i'm only gonna worked till 6.. haha..
kr get everyone working at gior to go amk central's S11 to eat ba chor mee on this coming thurs after work.. maybe i'll be going la.. cause can meet up and talk crap a little ma.. haha..
12:11:00 AM
Friday, January 05, 2007
it's a great start for the year.. i'm so happy..
12:25:00 AM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
went to watch night at the museum with bao bei today.. but we meet up quite late so until now then reached home.. haha.. it was a nice movie.. v funny.. but we so sueh lohz!! sat at the front row again!!! arhHhhHhhH!!! everytime like that de leh.. qi si wo liao.. but nvm la, cause i'm with her, so don't mind.. hehe.. so after our movie, we walked around and she went to try some clothes.. haha.. i was so shocked when she came out from the changing room sia.. the tube top which she wore was like...................... SO SEXY SIA!!! haha.. we just kept on laughing and she even scolded me bian tai lohz.. wa piang!! then i told her, luckily i'm not a guy, otherwise i would have fall for her liao.. haha.. she was super sexy lohz.. i would fall for her doesn't mean i judge from outlook la.. but just a comment nia.. i'm not that bian tai ok.. some more i'm also not a guy.. haha.. so she bought it and we walked to bugis to eat duck rice.. our favourite food!! haha.. then home we went..
saw an uncle fell down when we were at amk train station sia.. so poor thing eh, at 1st we thought he would be fine.. but he sat there and a guy went to help him out.. nice right.. then i went to pass him tissue cause he was bleeding.. while that guy went to buy paster for him.. when the man got up, i can sense how painful he was la, cause he was laming sia.. luckily he only injured his leg.. get well soon uncle!! =)
12:27:00 AM
Monday, January 01, 2007
happy new year everybody.. just like what derrick said, one more year of friendship!! haha.. i just woke up and luckily, i didn't wait for bao bei to meet me last night.. she didn't call me.. otherwise i would have waited for like don't know how long lohz.. too tired last night.. went to meet bee eng and gang yesterday for the countdown.. hmmm.. we did nothing much sia.. went to swenson to find them then wanted to go and watch the fireworks at vivocity.. but end up we saw nothing and even gotta squeeze our way out.. wa piang!! so cramp nehz.. after that most of the people headed home and the rest like me, bee eng, florence, boon, jing long and wei kang actually decided to stay out longer but just don't know what to do.. in the end, we went back home.. lame right!! wa kao eh!! reached home at around 2 plus, wanted to wait for bao bei to meet me so i decided to watch youtube 1st.. then while watching i fell asleep.. =(
so i decided to sleep and slept till now then wake up.. haha..
so tired.. luckily today i don't have to go to work, otherwise i would have died at the outram park lohz..
1:57:00 PM
