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Saturday, April 29, 2006

juz woke up nt long ago.. haha.. long tym nv slp for so long liao lohz.. i'm reali exhausted!! haha.. anywae, sian diao lohz.. lata gt tuition agn.. my 3 dae de free dae all packed liao.. fainted liao.. saddening eh.. lata 6.45pm poa, den e tutor was lyk crazy lohz.. gave so mani hw den ask me try ter finish by todae.. wa piang!! tmr is chem tuition den mayb mon gt eng tuition.. aRHhHh!! fainted nehz..
was awaken by my fone de smses.. dunno wat siang wei is toking abt la.. all so weird den i dun even understand a single sentence.. haha.. ai ya.. tats nt impt la.. smth more impt ter sae.. haha.. i dreamt of ah mun eh.. wa piang.. dis tym is i cried in my dream lohz.. e dream is so qi guai de.. den everyone in e dream were oso so qi guai.. haha.. altho i was disappointed in her la, but now no liao.. nt angry oso le.. i'm forgiving rite.. muahahaha.. b4 i woke up nt oni dreamt of tat but oso quite a lot la.. can't rmb liao.. haha..
ai yo.. lata jl dey all going out eh.. my cute boy boy going lohz.. altho kenrick is nt mine la.. but he's simply too kawaii le.. muahahaha.. dey going town eh.. i wanna go lohz.. reali wanna join dem de and mayb haf a lot of ppl going lohz.. coz din c dem online lohz.. wa piang!! dey going town sum more sia.. hmpf!! all bcoz of exam, all bcoz of tuition i gonna missed so mani things.. hmpf!! reali no choice eh..
but nvm, afta mid yr, i gonna njoy myself a little liao.. or else i sure will go crazy de.. haha.. so ppl whom i oways mixed wif, muz pay attention wor.. afta mid yr exam, jio me out or wateva de kz.. haha.. gonna njoy myself a little nia la.. den afta tat muz study agn for o lvl.. haha.. i muz work real hard coz its a deal n promise btween me n buddy kang.. yeah!!

12:14:00 PM

Friday, April 28, 2006

yeah!! wasn't feeling hungry until evening juz now sia.. din ate anything for e whole dae nehz.. haha.. will i succeed.. hehe..
anywae, drank a cup of bubble tea todae n 2 currypuffs.. dis is my dinner.. haha..
yeah! tmr no sch eh.. so happi.. cn stay up till late agn.. haha.. until mon den go sch sia.. haha.. holidae rox.. hmmm.. was still deciding whether wanna go sis dere ter study anot eh.. i tink its reali a nice n gd environment.. but i'm afraid tat i gonna miss everything here during e june holidae if i go.. lyk my fwens, my room n everything.. haha.. still deciding.. haha..
OMG! wee kiat gt msn eh.. lucky now i dun write things abt him le.. otherwise if i write it he sure cn c liao.. den oso can't write abt him le if i gonna write anything abt him.. but no la.. i'm nt gonna do tat liao.. coz its all in e past le.. zhu ta xin fu orh.. exactly 13mths todae eh.. so swit n longlasting rite.. haha.. how i wish i haf sum1 hu now.. haha.. but nt desperate ter haf one la.. juz dreaming of having one nia la.. but oso nv tot of having one now.. coz study is already stressful enuff liao.. so dun haf tym ter tink of tat now.. muahahaha.. its all e feeling tat cums den will haf chemistry de..
haha.. but at e moment dun haf.. hehe..

7:41:00 PM

Thursday, April 27, 2006

my mood for todae is nt high but oso nt low.. yeah!! todae no tuition eh.. haha.. otherwise i sure wanna faint liao lohz.. muahahaha..
% for mood of e dae is
30%!!
reali nt in gd mood but my mood is oso nt happi.. juz average ba!! haha.. dere's nth much for me ter update todae.. juz feel lyk blogging.. hehe.. so happi todae ate ice-cream eh.. eat those kinda roadside de.. which is e last tym uncle selling outside campus 2 dere de ice-cream.. ate e honey star.. haha.. e menu num is no.3 wor.. haha.. yeah! no.3 is a nice num.. hehe..

4:00:00 PM

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

oh man!! i've mistaken her nehz.. i reali shldn't haf misunderstood her eh.. OMG!! i was real guilty lohz.. ai ya.. fainted liao la!! out of sudden i cried eh.. tink was feeling too guilty le tats y teard came out.. haha.. but i'm sure its all bcoz of e guiltyness tats y will suddenly cry.. sorri miss yoe.. wo zhi cuo le!! arHHh!! will treat miss yoe beta in future de.. muahahaha.. miss yoe is a nice person.. yeah!! she still hasn't gif up on us.. we still prefer u rather than e stupid idiot mark.. he juz sux.. we hate him.. haha..

6:56:00 PM


sort of disappointed eh.. y miss yoe react in tat wae? sounds a little hurting lohz.. even mama oso tinks tat she's being too much.. muz she hua qing jie xian?? i was so high when i noe gonna go find u den all of us do art together lohz.. den i was lyk reali putting in effort n concentrating ter draw de lohz.. but.. nvm la.. i din go todae anywae, dun even haf ter mood ter draw oso.. might s well stay hm n draw.. i believe i cn finish de.. haha.. wonder whether will i still b high when i c u or shld i juz turned away.. nvm.. its nt impt at all..

12:13:00 PM

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

so irritated by todae de weather inside e hall lohz.. i reali can't stand it sia.. almost everyone of my classmates sitting dn dere gonna die of e hotness dere lohz.. den e jetaime was sitting dn dere complaining n complaining n complaining.. OMG!! was a little irritating la, but its reali quite hot de.. haha.. but in e end, at e end of e exam oso no one brought a fan over for us lohz.. i was sweating lyk hell when i was doing e papers lohz, den my nose was lyk cannot stop e running nose sia.. but i'm happi todae, altho i noe e papers i did may nt b gd but saw miss yoe in e hall invigilating nehz.. haha.. s usual de, i smiled at her while i'm doing e paper.. haha.. sort of funni la, but i'm happi ma.. cn c e teacher i miss in e hall nehz.. hehe..
so reached hm early todae.. hmmm.. din noe y eh, juz dun feel lyk taking 165 hm juz now, so might s well take coz bee ask me ter take den go hm 2gether but i drop at e mac dere de stop den walk ter e bus interchange by myself.. haha.. nt having depression la.. but juz feel lyk being alone den wanna walk a little bit b4 i go hm.. muahahaha.. so saw jing long mama n tok ter her a while den go off le.. den reached interchange tat tym saw flrce mama.. haha.. todae is a mama dae izzit? kip seeing fwens de mamas.. haha..
todae oso is a v coincident dae lohz.. saw wei hua agn in e bus when on e wae hm.. haha.. ytd oso saw her when i'm waiting for bus 261 at interchange.. den todae met her agn oso on 261, but dis tym she board e bus at MRT station dere la.. haha.. den find her real cute, tok ter me until so gentle sia.. den tease her n sae she's following me hm coz ytd oso met her on my wae hm ma.. dis gal hor, sumtyms can't stand e wae she react de eh.. its oso my 1st tym knowing a gal hu is so gentle de.. rare rite?! haha.. gtg go shower lo.. feel rather relax todae coz gt nth much ter study de.. tmr de paper end at 9.45am den cn go hm le.. muahahaha.. yeah!!

3:09:00 PM


aRhhh!! i simply miss MISS LIM & MISS YOE nehz.. reali njoy e tym wif dem lohz.. i reali miss those daes.. when cn i eva find tat kinda feeling bac? OMG!! c dem oso dun haf sufficient tym ter chat much wif dem.. especially Miss Lim.. njoy gossipping wif her n hear her chanting n nagging n complaining n loads n loads of things tat we had fun 2gether sia.. i miss Miss Lim & Miss Yoe..

12:22:00 AM

Sunday, April 23, 2006

hmmm.. wa.. felt beta afta crying le.. thnx sis!! actually gonna find yi hua de.. but dun wanna disturb her frm studying so end up calling sis.. coz tat tym reali shou bu liao le.. but now reali feel a lot beta le n i tink i cn handle beta le.. but dunno whether lata still gonna study anot.. juz cooled dn nt long ago..
anywae, i will b strong! coz i'm nt alone.. & i noe hu will b dere for me! sorri if i din call u 1st nehz.. coz reali dun wanna disturb u in case u get scolding frm parents..

8:36:00 PM


aRHhhh!! dunno wats wrong wif me now.. juz out of sudden felt tat i gonna explode soon.. hmmm.. dunno wat m i tinking of eh.. anywae, juz feel lyk blogging now.. sian.. hvn't study much n had bin on e fone for daes, its continuously de lohz.. haha.. but its fun la, coz cn chat n chat n chat.. reali wonder shld i gif up for my mid yr eh.. coz super damn no tym ter study lohz, nt bcoz of anything, juz bcoz smth seems ter b missing tat makes me dun feel lyk studying for mid yr.. but i reali dun wanna gif up.. i reali dun wan to!! ai ya.. dunno la, juz too many things had happen liao, gonna go out of breathe soon le.. aRhGgGgGG!! i reali dunno wats wrong dis tym, its nt tat i've lagged of slp, is juz an undescribeable feeling.. tink i nd ter go out ter catch a breathe.. but i dunno where ter go eh.. i reali dunno wat i wan..
juz wats wrong ah.. dun wanna tink of anything tat i dun nd ter worry de.. but ai ya!! dunno la.. now de emotions damn sux lohz.. dunno wats wrong.. i dun wanna breakdn anymore!!! i've enuff of breakdning liao.. seriously, truthfully, honestly!! or izzit bcoz my hse dn dere is super duper noisy?!! reali super pek chek eh.. sing until s if e whole amk ppl cn hear lohz.. is smth i can't understand de.. MALAY ppl getting married so catch no bal on wat dey r singing eh.. dey had bin singing for hrs liao sia.. Fainted lohz!! cn any1 tel me wats wrong wif me!!

4:35:00 PM

Saturday, April 22, 2006

juz woke up nt long ago n gonna go prepare myself afta updating.. haha.. miss blogging lohz.. so mani daes nv blog liao.. i miss u! hmmm.. actually study last nite afta slping until 12am.. but i was feeling so miserable s i was having headache n feel nauseous lohz.. feel so miserable lohz. so ask long cal me ter wake me up but i din manage ter wake up.. haha.. slept until 8++ coz ah mun woke me up ter asked me pass her her shirt. so came bac at 9 den continue wif me slp.. muahaha..
was so shock in e middle of e nite at 1++, OMG!! wat others said r true lohz.. reali can't believe it.. asked me izzit true tat kelvin thong said i gt stead le? tat kelvin thong hor, dunno hear hu sae de lohz.. those ppl gossipping abt me nehz.. so told him tat no la.. den he out of sudden crap agn.. i reali tot he was crapping.. but.... arhHHh!! coz was too slpy at nite den din pay attention ter wat he said until dis morning den i saw e msg he sent.. i reali wonder how shld i react nehz.. gif him a chance lyk wat buddy saes? hmmm.. dun tink so la.. too sudden liao.. haha.. told buddy n flrce, unless he cn dun b so childish & nt so petty den i consider lohz.. but to b serious la, dun haf e feeling for him eh.. shld b la! juz a fwen to me..
anywae, so much things had happen nowadaes.. tok on fone wif yi hua e dae b4 yesterdae.. was so sad tat she suddenly breakdn sia.. nt gd at consoling la.. but juz wait n listen ter her lohz.. chatted for quite long.. lucky she called me, coz i already realise tat she's nt being normal liao lohz.. but i din call her coz afraid tat she might b bz studying n afraid her parents will nag at her.. sorri hua! nex tym if i realise anything nt rite i will call u liao.. hehe..

12:29:00 PM

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

muahahaha!! hab such a fun n coolinh dae todae sia.. hehe.. went ter play bbal in sch while waiting for e others coz dey all la.. dunno y wanna help tat cheam lohz.. wa piang.. tat cheam reali v wat lohz.. anywae.. so me, buddy, xuan n long were feeling damn bored coz until arnd 5 plus still stuck in e rain lohz.. sian diao.. den oso nth ter tok afta gossiping for e past few hrs.. haha.. so we decided ter go play bbal.. but hu noes e rain gets heavier n heavier.. but me n long still wanna play la.. coz juz wanna get ourselves wet.. but hu noes, e rain is real heavy daOoOoo we were all drenched frm inside till outside.. hair still dripping lohz.. haha.. but real fun coz long tym nv lyk tat liao.. den wa piang.. buddy super sueh lohz.. was juz abt ter cum out join us afta seeing me n long play until v fun den OM came sia.. haha.. tok ter us a while den we went ter toilet ter dry ourselves.. but me real wet daoOoOo dere's no wae ter dry, so decided nt ter dry liao since getting wet is my motive.. haha.. yeah!! so happi & real wet nehz.. until now i'm still wet lyk dunno wat lohz.. but fun la.. haha.. hope ter get ter play in e rain agn sum dae.. muahahaha..
den gt updated a lot by esther todae when we were having free period den she came dn for dentist.. hehe.. den i oso told her tat i'm afraid or rather frightened of going ter e dentist lohz.. so scary eh.. =( qi guai rite tat we 2 cn tan de lai.. but coz we 2 gt tok de ma.. so she trust me quite a lot n i tink its great tat she will ownself tell me so much thing.. hehe.. nt reali a lot but its counted s more than enuff le.. muahahaha.. esther is fun n nice!!

7:03:00 PM

Monday, April 17, 2006

OMG!! nearly kenna xia dao by tat fsw lohz.. out of a sudden nowadaes do those stunts sia.. dunno wats wrong wif him sia.. is he nuts? out of his mind i tink!! haha.. tat dae ask me go out den sae all those kinda things which makes me feel a little guai guai n disgusting mayb.. dis few daes lyk consistently will msg me de nehz.. nth ter tok den still waste msg tel me.. for wat? my sms oso nd ter save up ter send more impt msg de ma.. wa piang.. yao bu shi kan zai he is my classmate, i won't even bother abt him liao.. ooPPs!! muahahaha.. anywae.. he did another stunts todae lohz.. xia daoOooo wo leh.. he almost wanna buy tofuman for me lohz.. yes, i admit i lub tofuman loads.. but if is he buy for no reason den i won't lyk liao.. coz so qi guai lohz.. but he oso v funni sia.. sae dun wan still insist, dun understand eng or wat? still wanna share wif me den gif me s a b'dae present lohz.. haha.. is tat still a present frm him? i tink is me n him share de den gif myself ba.. wa piang.. rubbish him lohz.. CRAP!! tai mei cheng yi le ba.. my b'dae oso damn long ago liao lohz.. now den wanna buy me a present. sum more is i gt a share in e present de lohz. wat is he doing? fainted sia! stupid rite?! he recently reali do quite a lot of stunts nehz.. in e past nv do de, dis few daes oso do liao.. sae those things tat i won't even tink of it.. so unexpected..
anywae, tink gonna fail my maths test for e 1st tym liao lohz.. sian diao.. todae de test reali dunno how ter do nehz.. ah dueh.. i wanna faint liao.. haiz.. dis few daes muz study hard.. i swear!! dun wanna do badly, altho its oni mid yr exam.. muz take it seriously.. haha.. gonna go study liao..

10:49:00 PM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

yeah!! had a new haircut todae.. quite satisfied wif me hair de.. altho e frindge is a little short la.. but tym will make it grow longer de.. hehe.. so went ter Rave for haircut wif hua n shan todae.. queued for quite long lohz.. sian diao.. muz wait here n dere.. so sian.. but lucky we kip ourselves entertain.. muahahaha.. so afta haircut, decided ter go mit jl coz he called me n sae he bored den wanna ask me go out.. den i realise tat afta haircut, shan oso go hm le, den hua gotta mit ky.. so i might s well go mit jl.. haha.. so waited for him ter cum dn n shelter me s it was raining ma.. so went up ter his hse coz wanna pay his mama n sis a visit.. coz too long nv c dem liao.. haha.. so his mama praised me tat my hair looks quite nice.. but no nd ter sae de la.. his mama oways treat me so nice de.. but she's tinking too much liao.. hehe.. so waited for kl ter finish his shower den went up ter my hse ter get those study materials den went ter my hse dere de Mac ter study.. haha..
had so much fun wif him lohz. was laughing crazily nehz.. den told him lots of things.. s in update him a lot of things la.. so sat dere do sum revision while chatting lohz.. den he saes he wanna go my hse dere ter eat.. so we went dere den i juz sit dn dere pei him eat laksa lohz.. he pig lohz.. eat so much.. wats e big deal tat he had lost sum weight.. haha.. so juz reached hm nt long ago den gonna rest early tonite coz tmr nd ter wake up early ter go uncle hse for those wedding thingy la.. quite ma fan sia.. muz go here, go dere.. sian lohz..
so sian now.. my mama spoil my mood lohz.. critisize my new hairstyle.. haiz.. juz dun understand her la.. wateva i cut, she oso dun lyk de.. i noe i shldn't b sensitive.. but dere was nv once tat she lyks my new hairstyle wheneva i had a haircut.. y can't she b supportive a bit.. reali dun lyk e wae she c things eh.. wat e hell!! wats wrong man.. y muz she spoil my mood at e end of e dae when i came hm happily.. haiz.. reali spoil my dae eh.. ArhHhh!! cn anyone gif me a helping hand.. nt appreciative den 4get it la.. muz she critisize me?! saddening now.. had a fun dae den tot todae still cn live over wif a fun dae.. but looks lyk at e end of e dae, juz one mouthful of word came out frm her mouth.. i already sian diao liao.. haiz.. my mood now reali sux!!! i nd sum1!!! ARhHHH!!!

11:19:00 PM

Friday, April 14, 2006

had a long dae todae.. so happi tat todae is a public holidae.. muahahaha.. slept at 1.30 afta chatting wif jl on fone.. me n him ok liao.. tink going bac ter normal liao la.. haha.. hmmm.. actually gonna wake up agn at 3.30 am ter do sum studying de.. but din manage ter wake up sia.. haha..
anywae, slept till 11.30 am n tot i'm gonna b late ter mit ah mun coz we miting 12.. so i msged her n hu noes she's even later than me den sae wanna mit me at 1.. ah dueh.. when i went dn ter take bus she saes tat she wanna change to 1.30.. so i noe its a little late when i'm already dnstrs n she wanna change e tym.. but we still mitting 1.30 coz dun wanna her ter rush here n dere la.. but she still rushed by taking cab coz she dun wanna me ter wait so long for her ma..
she bluff me lohz.. actually is eating lunch together de & tats wat she said when we decided ter mit up.. den she told me sae she eat liao so juz wanna pei me go eat.. ArhHhh!! you na me yi dian bei pian de gan jue.. so went ter mac ter eat coz feel lyk having double cheeseburger.. muahahaha.. so s usual de, was listening ter wat she's gonna update me abt wat had bin happening ter her recently.. we sat dere for 2 hrs plus den she sae gtg coz nd ter mit xt dey all.. den s usual decided ter pei her go take train but dis tym she stopped me sia.. coz she kip nagging at me and wanted me ter study hard.. haha.. she's over reacting le la..
had a nice dae chatting wif her todae.. she oso passed me her chem notes n i reali find it real useful.. she's my saviour.. muahahaha.. so went hm wif e stack of heavy chem notes lohz.. den studied a bit.. i muz emphasize agn.. i'm nt being stress la.. juz wanna do sum study coz its a promise ter sis ma.. den suddenly feel lyk calling jl ter ask him sum things.. so we chatted frm 6 plus until 8 lohz.. coz gonna start tuition soon at 8.15 ma.. haha.. afta e chat, reali realise tat he's reali my brother.. i mean in a sense of buddy tat kinda brother la.. altho tat tym quarrel was real pissed off wif him.. but afta e quarrel, we r bac lyk b4.. still cn tok a lot, crap a lot & oways listen attentively ter wat we were toking abt.. mayb tat tym i reali shldn't react so harshly.. shld haf tok things out calmly.. but i still dun tink i'm completely at fault la.. dun care lohz.. still his fault or provoking me.. hehe..

10:40:00 PM

Thursday, April 13, 2006

had a long dae in sch todae sia!! all sec 4s & 5s nd ter stay bac afta sch ter attend e Speech dae.. so sian lohz. so we went ter mac ter eat den we sat dn dere crapping 2gether.. hmmm.. realised tat me n jl began toking liao.. todae crap a little wif him le.. nt pissed off wif him le la.. things r nt tat bad afterall.. den gwen, chia kang n agnes oso cum along.. den was quite shock abt e news tat dey stead liao sia.. haha.. anywae, afta eating n crapping, we gonna go bac ter sch coz miang nd ter reach sch b4 2.45 s she is e prize winner ma.. so reached sch liao den went up ter e hall.. so sian lohz.. waited for e thing ter start but took so long ter start.. wa piang.. so while waiting, me, bee n sin yee went ter e toilet.. saw wei hua n sum of her fwens la.. so decided ter ka jiao her coz she oways bully me de.. saddening lohz.. treat her so gd still bully me.. afterall i'm counted s her mummy eh.. but tat was when we get ter noe each other on e 1st dae la.. muahahaha.. she was so angry wif me coz i kip laughing at her dressing.. she dressed until so funni coz she gonna perform for CO for speech dae.. haha.. so was crapping so much wif bee n sin yee when we went bac ter hall afta tat.. haha.. hab quite a lot of fun.. hehe.. all of us were so surprised by e Speech dae for ending so early lohz.. consent form states tat will end at 7 but end up by 5 ++ jiu end le.. tats a miracle sia coz last yr de speech dae end v late.. muahahaha.. so we went dn ter e canteen coz e others of my fwens wanna watch e fashion show created by Naqib.. altho i dun lyk dis guy here coz he's 4eva so arrogant de, yucks!! but i'm so impressed by all those clothes tat were designed by him sia.. tats smth i reali can't deny, those clothes are reali too nice liao.. i oso quite lyk sum of dem nehz.. den i find tat i was so bad.. haha.. coz i told my fwens tat almost every guy designers r so gay de.. so in future if he reali bcame a fashion designer den i tink he will b so gay oso ba.. muahahaha.. but my fwens oso agreed wif me la.. hehe..
so afta watching e tym is still early but all of dem wanna go hm.. so went ter take bus, den i realise tat i was so suey lohz.. saw Bn agn todae.. but i pretend tat i din c him den walked bhind him la.. haha.. but tat was so obvious tat i cn c him juz tat i act blur nia coz dunno wat ter tok ter him when i c him ma.. he called me den asked me if i cn c him anot.. den still act blur.. haha.. but he din realise la.. haha.. i'm so pro rite.. he's a ben dan.. muahahaha.. den when i reached hm was quite shock ter received his call agn.. he sot diao liao la.. ask me go play bbal at nite wif his bunch of ex mf de fwens.. tat was so weird lohz.. dunno wats wrong wif him la.. but i still rejected him in e end.. hehe..
hmmm.. gonna mit up wif ah mun tmr for lunch coz super long tym no c her le.. & she's missing me too much.. dis silly gal oso so frightened tat i will treat her e wae she dreamt of e dae b4 ytd sia.. she reali worry too much coz tats how A told me.. haiz.. wat cn i do ter let her noe tat i won't treat her so cruelly de heh? n wat cn i do ter nt let things b so confusing? ah dueh.. i wanna b nice ter everyone but dun wanna anyone ter comment on anything..

9:56:00 PM

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

OH NO!! still can't get ter slp eh.. can't feel e tiredness sia.. mayb was tinking too much abt mani things liao.. was ah mun reali so harsh wif me in e past? she herself oso realised tat n Aaron oso said tat she was tinking too much.. so all i cn do was ter console her & i realised she reali treat me so differently compared ter e past.. she became more understanding, nt so harsh, nice, swit & almost everything tat i din reali expect frm her.. but on e other hand.. did i changed ter bcum another person? i dunno eh? bu yao zou cuo lu.. hmmm.. tink reali muz gif it a tot liao.. dun wanna change anything tat nd nt b changed.. hmmm.. oso tinking of wat jac said juz now.. m i so sensible in her eyes among everyone among us? was she disappointed wif me frm my action? but she seems ter quite understand me nehz.. she noes tat sumtyms i'm hiding my feelings.. haha.. its nt tat i dun wanna share or sae.. is juz tat i dunno how ter express.. i hope i cn trust her beta than in e past.. n i tink i muz try ter learn on how ter do it sia.. can't reali get ter slp oso cld b bcoz my feet de bone is aching now sia.. swollen & blue black liao... arhHhH!! saddening sia..
OMG!! cn ah mun sensed wat i gonna sae ter her? she forward me gd nite msg sia.. qi guai! she noes tat i'm complaining izzit? haha..

11:56:00 PM


waoOoO.. i'm full of different feelings todae sia.. dun wanna tok abt wat happen in sch todae coz mood was so weird in sch.. hmmm, anywae, felt a pain on my ankle these few daes so decided ter go to sinseh.. haha.. actually wanna ask jl pei me de, coz he lives nearer n we 2 finally tok liao.. hmmm.. but still bit weird la.. anywae, he told me he was sick so of coz dun wanna trouble him.. dunno y eh.. din wanna ask bee or flrce ter pei me coz find it too weird le.. so decided ter ask jac along coz out of sudden tink of her.. so we mit at 5.30 on e bus den change e bus 265 at jubilee go to blk 511 ter tui jiao.. OMG!!! blue black liao lohz.. dun tink will wanna wear shoe tmr.. wear slipper le.. hehe..
den afta tat we walked bac ter our area dere n decided ter continue ter tok coz i tink we've still gt a lot of things ter tok abt.. hehe.. so we sat dn at blk 570 dere de playground dere.. i was so impressed n surprised by wat she had told me sia.. haha.. den b4 we sat dn dere, oso hear her telling me tat Bee cried tat dae when dey were chatting at her bee de hse lohz.. haiz.. she was so worked up when jac mention abt dis grp de thingy lohz.. haiz.. when i heard jac said tat, i was feeling quite guilty coz partially oso my fault.. hmmm.. but i reali dunno wat ter do liao.. all i cn do is tried ter mixed wif dem more often n i managed ter do it nehz.. so happi lohz.. tat dae on e 7th April, we had so much fun at Peggy de working place dere lohz.. haha.. i tink tat was e 1st tym i felt tat i did tried my best ter salvage those lost fun & happiness tat we used ter haf together wif everybody in Zi Ji Ren.. n i oso realise tat i nd dem too.. hehe
due to nd ter go sch tmr, me n jac decided ter go hm early coz i told her i wanna guai guai go hm study a bit.. hehe.. so she suggested tat we go to Mac dere ter pay Chin Leong a visit.. coz i sae long tym no c him le.. so we walked dere n jac realised tat cl is on leave todae.. OMG!! tat blur queen lohz.. can't stand her sia.. so she pei me walked bac hm until a short distance den i chased her hm liao coz by e tym she reached hm will b lyk so late lohz..
so reached hm liao, ate my dinner den decided ter study a bit den go online.. but nv did i expect tat all my plannings gt mixed up.. Brandon called me agn.. he has bin calling me for e past few daes but i din picked up in e middle of e nite coz was sound aslp liao.. haha.. so todae he told me wat happen online.. haha.. he reali made me laugh lohz.. kip emphasizing tat i look lyk e Khim in Campus Superstar.. OMG!!! i dun tink i look lyk lohz.. dunno wats wrong wif every1's eyesight eh.. quite a few ppl already said tat i look lyk her lohz.. at least my eyes are bigger than hers lohz.. told him tat i nd ter study liao so dun wanna chat le coz he wanna cal bac agn afta he finish his shower..
went online den saw ah mun nehz.. So we started toking den she told me tat she dreamt of me last nite.. she dreamt tat i was scolding her until v harsh den she cried sia.. wats worse is tat real tears were actually dripping when she woke up lohz.. i reali can't imagine how harsh did i treat her in e dream sia.. den she was so scared tat she decided ter cal sum1 ter tok to coz she was awoken by dis nitemare.. haiz.. e sad thing is i tot she will cal me coz she dreamt of me ma.. but... haiz.. i wasn't e one tat she tinks of e moment she decided ter make a cal.. quite disappointed.. but she said she knew i was aslp so din called me.. but at least she shld try calling rite? nvm la.. its ok.. coz she sounds jealous when we were toking abt other thing else but tat makes me feel a little guilty oso la.. muahahaha!! but its nt my fault for nt msgin her lohz.. at least i bother ter forward her msg nehz.. how cn she lyk tat sae me.. ai yo!! she's worse leh.. nv even forward me a single msg nt ter sae a single concerning msg lohz.. wa piang!! but i din expect in return la..
so yi hua called me juz now.. haha.. she was so funni lohz.. feeling so confused leh.. actually things cn b solved ezly de.. juz tat she nds sum1 pro lyk me ter help her out.. muahahaha.. gtg study le. using e best shortcut method ter study liao... using notes online ter study.. easier n more convenient oso.. hehe..

10:20:00 PM

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

todae de mood was up n down lohz.. dunno wats wrong wif me.. dun reali feel lyk toking den energy level was so low compared ter ytd.. ArhHhH!! reali can't stand myself sumtym sia.. cld b moodswing todae.. haha.. anywae, lucky todae de poa tuition gt cancelled.. otherwise, my mood sure worsened de.. hehe.. coz todae gt eng tuition at 6.. cha yi dian chuan bu guo qi..
so went online ter chat.. 1st person hu click on me is Melissa liao.. she nowadaes oways cum tok ter me wheneva e moment i go online.. den she told me loads of things sia.. sum more she was so envious of my lime green nike bag coz she oso lubs tat colour.. she was sumhow hinting me ter lend her carry coz i sae lend her take pics of it coz i din noe how ter reply her ma.. den she sae, Huh? lyk tat nia ah..? i actually oso dun mind lending her e bag la, coz no harm lending her anywae.. n since she reali lyk e bag so i told her tat we cn exchange bags for one dae lohz... but she oso nv wanna borrow la.. coz she scared tat her fwens will badmouth her, lyk connie n gang lohz.. haiz.. she so poor thing sia.. already poor thing enuff coz she herself noes tat dey dun lyk her, den sumtyms wanna do things tat she wans oso scared here scared dere de.. all those things she worries are unnecessary de lohz.. coz i told her b4 dun haf ter bother how others judge her or sae her, otherwise she will live a terrible life lohz.. den i almost sae until i oso dunno how ter console her le.. but i've tried my best!! hope she cn live happier... frankly speaking, she's reali quite ok de.. i juz dunno y e others dun lyk her.. mayb i dun understand her enuff.. =(
so while chatting, saw shan online.. den was panicking coz i still having cold war wif her ma so change my status quickly.. she noticed it den came ter tok ter me den apologise lohz.. sum more yh oso went ter tel her wat i've told her juz now in sch lohz.. shan told me everything but all those things tat i said r juz joking nia.. nt reali angry wif her le.. juz feel lyk playing nia ma.. but.. OMG!! den i realised tat she dun seem ter b in gd mood sia.. dunno y?? =( i hope its nt bcoz of wat i did nehz.. otherwise sure will guilty liao.. sum more i already broke my promise lohz.. actually wanna cold war wif her for 1 mth de.. but c her mood lyk so sad lyk tat, i went ter tok ter her lohz.. haiz.. ai ya.. dunno la.. fan si le.. nt a gd dae for me todae sia..

9:40:00 PM

Monday, April 10, 2006

ARhHhh.. sian lohz.. juz reached hm den tuition teacher saes tonite tuition at 8.. i nearly fainted sia.. tot cn relax den study a bit.. but realise tat, my life now can't reali relax de sia.. busy busy dae lohz.. fell aslp juz now during my geog test.. ArhhHh!! tats already bad enuff liao coz i did halfwae den pom, die dere.. but smth more terrible is, i drool saliva while slping lohz.. OMG!! i can't imagine i did tat sia.. tink was reali too tired liao.. den when i woke up i quickly wipe my mouth den dry my test paper.. muahahaha.. was so tired, so din wanna continue doing le, so slack dere until teacher collected e papers.. den faster went off & went dn ter c yh dey all play bbal.. haha.. afta tat actually wanna go hm liao, but muz wait for Shan ter cum coz she saes wanna jian jian wo men.. den i oso gonna return her money n t-shirt.. hmpf!!! was so angry wif her lohz, she slap me juz now!!! ARHHhHhHH!! i was so shocked when she suddenly did tat lohz.. i din show my anger but wasn't reali angry wif her la.. but decided ter cold war wif her.. no one had eva slapped me b4 lohz.. wa piang!!
afta accomplishing my mission, decided ter go amk central ter buy bao bao cha wif yi hua coz she oso wanna drink.. muahahahaha.. tats oso smth i reali lub it.. can't do w/o it lohz.. so while walking towards e bus stop, heard smth so shocking n funni lohz.. but can't sae it out.. thru out e conversation, i reali can't stop laughing at her while she was laughing at another thing which was oso related de.. haha.. reali can't imagine wat she told me was reflecting herself nehz.. hehe.. when we gt dn e bus was still laughing n teasing her coz reali can't stop it, juz can't control.. hehe.. yi hua, jia you ah!! kao lui yi xia la.. i mean e thing u told me when we reached central n u were buying ur favourite goreng pisang.. muahahaha.. oOPps!!
my mood todae was super high lohz.. cld b bcoz brought my new bag ter sch! hehe.. den a lot of ppl oso said tat my bag ish nice lohz... muahahaha.. so proud ter haf tat bag, din regretted buying altho it cost me $82.95.. oOPpS!
bao bao cha & lime green rox!! hehehehe.. yi hua rox! (coz she kip me updated todae & e updating ish quite a lot lohz. muahahaha!) dun lyk shan liao.. stupid hippo!!! i hate u!! hmpf!! cold war for 1 mth liao.. bleah!! =P

5:40:00 PM

Sunday, April 09, 2006

its e 1st blog tat i eva had.. all thnx ter Shan wor.. haha.. had bin wanting ter do blogging for quite sum tym le but juz dunno how to do it & finally did it todae.. had bin doing studying & homework stuffs for e whole dae so decided ter do my 1st recount todae.. had loads of things to sae.. went for flag dae ytd at orchard road with that bunch of crazy & loving fwens.. wanted ter wake up early ter do my work but in e end cannot make it so had ter do nth at all but juz to wait until 12 to go mit dem.. met everyone at Far East den went to eat Long John Silver which i was oways eating.. haha.. nv get sick n tired if it de.. LJS rox!! hehe.. afta having our lunch, we started work & everyone were divided into grps of 4 n a grp of 6.. i was in e grp of 6 which had Me, Bee, FLrce, Yan Zhen, Regina & Si Hui.. juz feel so sian in e beginning coz wasn't used to it den afta tat i was having fun coz a lot of ppl wanted ter help ter donate.. haha.. had a great sense of achievement...
halfwae thru, Xuan call me n asked if i wanna go look for dem at Taka coz 2 on 2 was helding dere.. so i get Flrce along n was so shock tat dere were so mani ppl dere lohz.. wa piang! when we reached dere, saw those Nbss de players whom we had arguements wif dem b4.. OMG! can't stand dem lohz, act sart! er daoOoOo.. so decided nt to continue watching coz a bit sian den me, flrce, bee, hui, reg n zhen decided ter continue with e tong gong thing.. went to heeren dere den dey sae dun feel lyk doing liao. Sian diao.. so we decided ter go into heeren dere ter shop n buy candies.. haha..
on e wae up saw smth tat imediately attracted my attention.. its a LIME GREEN de NIKE BAG lohz.. had bin hoping for one coz last tym oways dun haf tat kinda colour de.. but was shOoO lucky ytd.. went forward n i reali lyk it so i decided ter save money for it.. haha.. so i called mama n told her abt dis bag den she allowed me to buy sia.. tat was a miracle coz e bag cost $72.45 lohz.. so i told her i gonna go hm ter take money den cum bac agn.. den bee suggested ter lend me money coz she finds it too troublesum ter cum bac afta e flag dae thing liao.. but i rejected her coz find it too weird liao.. too much $$$ n dun lyk ter owe ppl so much.. haha.. so we decided ter continue shopping den we decided ter go mit up wif jl dey all at CK tangs.. so we walked bac den saw yh, shan n jun.. was so excited when i saw dem den i told dem i wanna buy e bag.. So qiao de, dey told me dey were looking desperately n i told dem heeren haf, den dey chiong to heeren liao.. Tat was so qiao rite?! haha..
so dey called me n told me dey buy liao.. wa piang, so envy dem lohz.. den dey told me a shocking news lohz.. e smaller one dun haf liao, left e big one.. which oni left 3 more afta Shan n yh bought.. ARHhHhh!! i was panicking lohz.. reali regretted coz shld haf borrow money frm bee lohz.. but at tat moment oso can't go bac coz nd ter rush bac ter Hougang ter return e tins.. ARHhHh!! panick more liao lohz.. so waited for a long tym for Jet, angel n wz ter mit us den we took bus n left Orchard liao.. when we were on e bus, e whole bus was full of our noise lohz.. OMG! den everyone was making so much noise, but i dun care la.. juz trying ter get sum slp coz too tired liao..
was being a little undecisive coz Brandon Sim called me n asked whether wanna mit him for dinner.. wasn't reali willing coz was wif my fwens den oso v fan abt e bag thing.. was 7 plus tat tym so dunno whether wanna go bac ter buy anot.. but was so scared tat if go bac another dae sure sold out liao.. coz e bag oni whole S'pore gt 3 branches haf den 2 branches already sold out liao. left e one at Heeren den left 3.. den was so bz receiving calls at tat tym den blur blur get up e bus wif my fwens den went ter Compassvale Point.. but in e end oso decided ter went bac ter Orchard ter buy e bag instead of eating.. haha.. too anxious liao.. so had ter trouble bee n kairong ter ask dem pei me go withdraw bee de $$ den go take train.. so Maureen, my pri sch budd, so happy but had ter rush for tym so went off afta speaking a few words wif her.. =( actually decided nt ter mit Brandon liao coz so weird but was so guilty den decided ter mit him..=(
on e train, was so shock tat ah mun called me.. din noe wat ter do coz she dun lyk Brandon n sure will scold me or b unhappy if i tel her i gonna mit Brandon.. din wanna tel her hu i mitting de but oso din wanna lie ter her so told her everything.. gt a scolding frm her but in a kidding tone la.. she said tat i shld haf asked her ter pei me coz she already quit her job liao.. but i wasn't updated a lot of things by her ma.. so nt my fault rite.. saddening lohz.. den explained ter her liao den she began ter tel me everything tat had bin happening ter her for e past 1 week ba.. coz we almost 1 week ++ din mit up liao.. was quite worried when heard tat she sprained her ankle during her poly camp lohz.. but she's ok liao n even sae she cn go shopping lohz.. so hear her updating n finally reached Somerset.. saw him but was still on e fone la, quite paiseh but oso dun wanna hang up wif her coz long tym nv tok on fone wif her liao.. n i knew she may nt b happy if i wanna end e conversations when she hvn't finish toking but i wanna hang for e sake of him.. but yucks!! i din do it for e sake of him, juz put myself in his shoes nia n i noe e feeling wasn't great.. so we ended n hang up.. bought e bag which cost me $82++ lohz.. xing tong but its worth it coz i had bin longing for e bag lyk dis.. muahahaha..
afta tat tot cn go hm le, coz its arnd 9++.. but tat stoopid guy wanna eat n find a place ter tok.. so bo bian, will feel guilty if i reject him coz he pei me go Heeren de ma.. so i bluff him sae i nt hungry den juz pei him go eat cn liao.. nt reali bluff la, coz reali nt hungry den partly oso bcoz left arnd 5 bucks which i dun wanna spend liao lohz.. going broke soon n nd ter save money for fwens de b'daes.. sian diao.. saddening lohz.. in e end, we went bac ter amk coz tats wat he suggested n in e end he oso dun wanna eat oni wanna go chat.. haiz.. was feeling so tired liao but he still dun wanna let me go hm when i tried hinting him b4 lohz.. ass rite?!!
went ter Cheng San CC dere de cafe ter sit dn n haf a drink.. was so tired but shiok when i manage ter haf a rest.. haha.. we oso din tok much la, oso dun wanna tel him too mani things lohz in case i get a slip of tongue on anything agn.. hehe.. so decided ter bluff him tat mama asked me ter go hm early n we left at arnd 11.. tat was quite late liao lohz.. juz dun wanna hang out so late wif him nia.. hehe.. so reached hm n quickly go shower.. coz i was so lam nua, in my sch u for e whole dae lohz.. yucks!! den msged min coz she nds my help ter do poly enrolment thing.. she din replied but called in e end.. dunno y leh.. i gt stuck for words sia.. dunno wat ter sae when both of us din tok.. ah dueh.. so qi guai n paiseh lohz.. but cld b bcoz my batt level left 1 bar.. haha.. felt so qing song when she hanged up.. OopPz! but i still lub toking ter her nowadaes coz i m more myself liao.. cn joke n crap more wif her compare ter e past.. haha..
waOooo.. wat a long recount i've written for my 1st one sia.. haha.. tink gonna haf more.. gonna go study now!! sian.. having Geog test lohz.. exams oso cumin up.. ARHhhH.. dun lyk leh.. anywae, wat i wanna sae for overall is tat i'm being quite happy nowadaes.. began ter feel tat i had sum contributions liao.. my fwens & basketballerz rox.. (0^_~)

6:52:00 PM