Sunday, October 28, 2007
sometimes i just wonder how long can a friendship last.. some can last for as long as decades or more.. some can only last for few months.. some people just ended a friendship due to some misunderstandings.. some can just last because they've always been so close or even got better and better as time goes by.. i used to have a really close friends.. for the beginning of 2 years, we've been really really close.. i even felt that we can still be as close when we grew up in few years time.. had so much plannings for our future.. wanted to live under one roof.. wanted to do so many many many things in future.. even know how to design our future apartment.. everything sounds so great well planned.. but just within a few months, everything changed.. it was as if it was a nightmare i had.. everything don't seem to be how they were planned accordingly anymore.. but i'm perfectly fine now.. =)
there are always some new people stepping into my life everyday.. i chose them and vice versa.. make sure they are of no harm to me and vice versa.. from passer-bys to hi bye friends and slowly, some got very close with me.. but some are strange, they got close with me, but we slowly drifted further and further away due to some reasons.. we can also get very close but due to no reason, we just drifted unknowingly.. some are interesting, we were such strangers to each other, but in no time, no reason and no limit, we got super close as no one can imagine..
didn't know why, had been having this thought for the past 2 days.. actually i still have the phobia.. i'm afraid of being too close with somebody and everything can turn out to be so chaotic.. i'm afraid of being someone who was the cause that cause other 2 best friends to drift.. just have so much fear that are so unexplainable..
sometimes things are unexpectable.. no one knows what's gonna happen between 2 best friends in few years time.. no one know's who are you gonna meet for the next moment..
for me, actually i do treasure each and every single one even if i don't seem to show sometimes.. but it's up to everyone whether to believe me or not..
4:10:00 PM
