Saturday, May 05, 2007
perhaps a lot of things had changed.. i guess i changed the most.. my reason for changing? i can't confirm.. i don't wish everything to have changed so much.. i didn't expect too.. did things went haywired or it's just us who don't wanna give in.. can everything still be salvaged? i wish they can, i guess it only depend on us.. i guess the quarrel for the past 2 days had hurt both of us deeply.. it's also the first time that we quarrelled.. it's also the first time that we said those harsh words.. such big ones.. =( maybe it will be better for us to have let go.. but i don't want to, so are you, i'd said before it's the last thing that i'll ever do to just give eveything up.. all i wanted was just to become a little different and not to the extent of giving everything up.. has everything come to this state.. i'm so confused, in a dilemma..
i just hate those people who said that i'm just trying to gain sympathy from them and let them hate you.. i swear i didn't have that intention.. i didn't just walked away after saying "if you don't share with me, then i shall not share anything with you anymore.." this was said after i walked off and went back.. it was not said before i walked away talking to others.. i was just joking anyway.. i don't know what went wrong.. when have things become like that.. i was so disappointed and upset when i knew about all those things..
I DIDN'T TRY TO GAIN ANY SYMPATHY FROM ANYONE!!! I DON'T NEED TO!! THOSE PEOPLE BETTER STAY AWAY FROM ME AND DON'T LET ME KNOW WHO YOU PEOPLE ARE.. IF YOU PEOPLE DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON, THEN SHUT UP AND DON'T TRY TO ACCUSE ME!! IF YOU PEOPLE ARE JUST TRYING TO MESS WITH ME, I'M NOT INTERESTED IN THAT.. i know it sounds so uncivilised to say that but i can't think off any other words to say, JUST **** off!! I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHAT YOU PEOPLE SAID!!
i don't wanna know who are these people, cause i'll be real disappointed if i ever knew who are they.. you asked and i just say.. that's all.. i thought i can they'll just listen but.. i'm wrong.. forget it..
maybe time is really all we need.. can we still be happy like how we are? i won't be any happier if we just give everything up.. i guess you won't too, truthfully, will you? i hope there may have other ways to solve the problem..
just take care alright..
11:14:00 PM