Thursday, September 07, 2006
on the 6th June 2006, i found this day meaningful and intended to confess to you.. you knew how i felt towards you through my friends.. it was an indirect confession to you.. hoping to get a reply from you on how you felt towards me and all you said was "i don't know.." at that point of time i think it was ok cause i didn't really expect anything.. in order to avoid us feeling awkward in future, i sort of asked you to treat as if nothing happened on that day no matter what my friend had told you..
some people find that you do like me but just that you didn't show it out.. i was thinking if it was your family background which stops you from going into a relationship.. actually if this was really the reason that hinders you, let me tell you, I DON"T MIND AT ALL.. but these are all my wishful thinking and i really like you so much..
was so happy and nervous everytime whenever i saw you at the basketball court.. watching you playing basketball makes me scrutinized on you.. playing basketball with you hastened my heartbeat but at the same time i was so happy.. the smile you gave me on that day was totally CUTE.. i'll never be able to forget!! i can still remember the night when we chatted over the phone for so long on your birthday.. i can also remember the way we messaged each other everytime.. liking you wasn't a regret for me..
until these few days when some people who knew that i like you asked me how are you and i progressing? then i realised actually i don't feel anything towards you anymore.. seriously, i wasn't missing you, not even for a second during these period of time.. it's around 3 months that you know that i like you.. but my feeling towards you now was simply just friends.. maybe it was because we hadn't been keeping in contact like messaging each other and therefore the feeling just went away without knowing.. seriously, i'm clear of how i feel now.. just like what buddy had said.. i go along with my heart..
i do hope that you are happy with how you are now.. hadn't been keeping in touch for long and really hope to hear from you soon.. you're the strongest and bravest guy i ever knew.. stay strong and do be happy kz..
it was the first time i'm totally sure of how i feel.. it was also the 1st time i can actually confess to a guy.. i think i'm growing up.. OMG! just saw you online.. haha.. but don't feel anything now..
10:55:00 PM
