Monday, September 11, 2006
letting it out makes me feel better.. to my sis, this is my so called exam stress.. maybe she's right.. but i'm also not sure on what kinda feeling is this.. everytime whenever me and my sis are on the phone talking about my studies stuff i will 100%, always, confirm, guarantee cry de.. haiz..
i find it silly la.. but this is beyond my control.. although i told doris that today is a happy day for me.. but still cry in the end.. find myself ricidiculous..
but at least i feel better after letting everything out.. we talked about how discouraged i was and stuffs like that.. mama still told sis that i'm always hanging out.. haiz.. don't know what is she thinking la.. she knew that i'm out studying but yet she don't find that i'm serious about it.. what is wrong!! does she really thinks that i'm always outside having fun and i had totally forgot about my studies.. how i wish i can tell her that i'm a lot more serious than anyone else lohz.. maybe you wouldn't believe and you would always think you are right then so be it but please don't ever say things which are not true.. yes i know exams are round the corner.. of course i know and i'm definitely very conscious about it without you telling me..
nevermind, whether you believe or not, i don't wish to know.. telling you or proving you wrong are just simply wasting my time.. therefore, i'm not gonna argue with you this time, that's why i wasn't quarrelling with you this time when you told sis that i'm always hanging out.. didn't wanna explain anything anymore le.. so sick and tired of it whenever you treat me like this..
WHATEVER!!! i'm gonna burn midnight oil tonight and i say i will, i really will.. therefore, i'm not gonna go school tml!! i didn't attend school doesn't mean i'm slacking okie.. i'm really gonna do self revision by myself..
11:12:00 PM
